You Can't Always Get What You Want . . .

. . . but if you try sometimes, you just might find, you get what you need. I had a fabulous workout with Seann today. We did lots of push-ups, tricep extensions, dead lift squats, lunges, and fun ab work. It was the first time since I broke my leg that I could do actual lunges without some kind of support.

Here's the crazy thing.  I've been feeling like my workouts with Seann weren't hard enough. First, I dismissed it thinking that he's starting easy and will make it more difficult as he gets a sense of what I'm capable of. Then I've been justifying it by focusing on the parts of the workout that were harder. But I really knew I wasn't working out like I wanted to be, and I wasn't saying anything. I was more worried about Seann feeling bad by me telling him I wasn't working out hard enough than I was on getting what I wanted. I realized yesterday that I'm half way through my two month training, and if I really wanted to accomplish my goals, I needed to say something.

So I told Seann today. He was fine about it and immediately gave me the kind of workout I wanted. It was hard to do and know I'm going to be sore tomorrow, which is what I want. Afterwards I realized that I was somehow expecting Seann to read my mind--to know what kind of workout I wanted. That's really crazy, and I wasn't being fair to either Seann or myself.

Do you want to hear something even crazier? When I use the Wii balance board to weigh myself, it always asks me if I want a fitness tip. Usually I say yes, but lately, I haven't had much time in the morning, so I've just been weighing myself, and saying no to the fitness tip. And I know part of me is worried about hurting the Wii's feelings because I don't want its tips. The WEii's feelings--and I think that even though I know the Wii doesn't have feelings. Hmmmm--I think I was too well socialized as a female and as a Minnesotan. It's a bad combination. Because most of the time, in order to get what you want and need, you need to be able to ask for it.

Shape Shifting

I'm starting to feel the shape of my body changing and I'm feeling stronger. It's a great feeling. I know I built a base for this when my doctor said I could start working out again at the beginning of November. I worked out 2-4 times a week, with 1 workout at Fitness Together, 1-2 spinning classes at the Y, and 1-2 weightlifting sessions at home or the Y.

But working out with a trainer 3 times at Fitness Together plus 2 spinning classes for the past week feels like my fitness level has accelerated amazingly. What a great feeling!

Today after doing a lot of squats, deadlifts, calf raises, and stair stepping, Sean led me in an intensive ab and oblique workout. The pictures are of my 2 favorite exercises from today. If you have a Swiss ball, the exercise pictured is a great way to have fun strengthening your abs while having fun. You just start by holding the ball with your arms straight and your legs bent and raised, lower the ball over your head until it touches the floor, raise it up and shift it between your ankles like on the left, and then lower your legs till it touches the floor. Keep your back flat on the floor, and you'll have nice sore abs tomorrow.

For the obliques, Sean had me lean sideways on a weight bench as pictured below, and then lower and raise my hips using my oblique muscles. A great way to isolate those muscles!

So with intense workouts like this, it's not surprising that I'm feeling my shape shifting.






What I don't like is how when I feel great, my mind is quick to undermine me. You're feeling good--do you know you're still 35 pounds over your ideal weight? Just think about what kind of shape you'd be in now if

you hadn't put on that 15 pounds this summer and fall. You'd be close to your ideal weight by the time you left for Nicaragua. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. I remind myself that I am where I am and I can't start anywhere but from where I am. If I had been in better shape to begin with, I might not have won the contest and been given this opportunity. Enough with the self-hatred. I'm having fun, getting stronger, shifting shape. Life is good!